“Something wasn’t right.” (part 1)
It took a long time of panicking about my sexuality before I recognized that I’m bisexual. When I was in elementary school, I remember having crushes on both boys and girls, but since I was so little, my feelings weren’t entirely clear. When I got to high school, I was conscious of the fact that I clearly liked girls; I had feelings for a girl back then. Our relationship didn’t go anywhere but it left me with a lot of regrets. For the next 5 years, I thought I was a lesbian. That is until one day during my 3rd year of university, I started liking boys. That was when I realized I was bi.
There was a time when I wondered if I really needed to come out. Because I have feelings for guys, I looked straight from the outside, so I didn’t feel the need to come out as bisexual. At the same time, I wondered if I didn’t come out because it was unnecessary or because, deep inside, I felt safe when my sexuality was not revealed. This went on for a couple of years until I couldn’t take it anymore, something wasn’t right; why was I denying such an important part of who I am? So I decided to come out to my partner because I thought if I was honest with him and with myself then I would feel so much more liberated… (to be continued)
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Rồi Sẽ Ổn Thôi (“Gonna Be Alright”) is a project that collects coming out stories from the LGBTIQ+ community and their loved ones in Việt Nam. To find out more details or to read more stories from the project, please visit our official social media site on Instagram at ComingOutVN.
